so i just finished taking this test that was linked on a blog forum i get on. it's a test developed at Harvard to supposedly test our individual racial preferences. you can take the test here (the one on the left. and then the first box labeled "race').
interestingly enough, or rather, unfortunately enough, my data suggested i have a "moderate automatic preference for European American compared to African American". there are seven possible outcomes-having a slight, moderate or strong preference for African American; slight, moderate or strong preference for European Americans, or no preference. and while 54% of the participants have either a moderate or strong preference for European American, only 6% have a strong or moderate preference for African American.
in other words-i'm still colonized. i am still mentally enslaved. i'm one notch below a Europhile.
hmmm....unfortunate. disheartening. sad. and a bit overwhelming.
it's even more tragic g when i feel as though i actively work towards self love (the self meaning people of color in general, but blacks particularly), as you can see with this blog....but i guess theres a subconscious level at which we all operate that we don't realize. unfortunately there doesn't exist a 12-step program for de-colonizing yourself. yea....i've a lot of work to do.
comment. think. take the test and let me know what your outcome is and your feelings about it.
photo by Margaret Rowland